Accepting things as they are...

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November was one of those month that just leave you drain emotionally and probably in every other aspect in life.

I'm so thankful at the things I learned while on my mission, they sure have helped in my current situations and also how to react and adapt to change more smoothly.

I been surprised in several ways this month and reminded that I can't not control everything and that I need to trust HIS timing! Along with HIS love.

Forgiveness is such wonderful experience, such witness of the great love of our Heavenly Father, of the sacrifice Jesus Christ performed. I'm marveled at how little we comprehend of the atonement yet what we do does sustain us.

Is not a secret that I'm extremely hard on myself, my goals perhaps aren't realistic to my circumstances and I can't never be happy with what I have accomplish! But I'm working on it, I have struggled with the thought that God never give up on us, in the contrary He is excited to see us come to him. Well I had an opportunity that really opened my eyes, long time ago I had a friend who I trusted very much and I develop feelings for him soon after, things went fine but later I find out how badly I was deceived and the consequences weren't pretty, much time passed and I never heard from my friend and I guess I took it as his way to show me what I meant to him. A couple of months after I returned from my mission to my surprise my friend appeared and at first I wasn't sure of my emotions and after hearing him out, I remember one of the phrases from my mission "we all make mistakes, this mistakes can create feeling of guilt and shame... The can be fully healed through the atonement of Jesus Christ".

It's true! I didn't feel the sadness or anger I had before, I saw my friend, the one I trusted and cared for and I was happy to see my friend once again. I know that as long we tried and out intentions are honest we can be sure we have done our best.

As well, I have noticed some changes, in myself, my environment, my family, school, my emotions, even my plans.

2015 is been full of experiences and who would I be to say that I haven't enjoy them even when they weren't so pleasant. I know there was something for me to learn each time.