The RM blues

I'm home!! Yes I'm home

Now my journey home was long, it took me almost 12 hours between flights airports and not to mention traveling to different time zones, but anyway. 

I had the privilege to travel with one of my past companions sister Kim Coleman, we agreed that we didn't feel like going home until our very last flight.

I had the chance to see one of my companions in Edmonton, I feel so privilege to had such an Amazing opportunity to serve a mission. 

As I was flying over Alberta I started to feel like I was a bit lost as soon as I saw the Rockies I knew without a doubt that I was almost home. With tears in my eyes I prayed to my Heavenly Father for comfort, for strength, for understanding and for His guidance. I recited everything I had memorize on my mission and quickly after I was landing in Kamloops I waited so I could be the last person and then I proceeded. My best friend Becky Taylor was at the door rushing to hug me and also inform me that my parents were on their way. 

There was a lot of familiar faces at the airport not to mention the weather was completely different I left Nova Scotia with -22 and with the wind was almost -38 and here I was on the other coast with 17c. 

My mom arrived and I didn't know what to do I wanted to cry and once my little siblings hugged me I started to cry soon more people came, I saw my older sister and her son and soon after my dad came an I just had to run and give him the biggest hug and also ask him if my punishment was over. 

We chatted at the airport and took some pictures, my parents took me to the house and Gabriela show me around and we went out for dinner. 

Te transition right there and then was hard by time I got home I was ready to sit down and cry. 

I missed my mission I feel like a lost puppy, I'm so grateful for all the sweet decorations and flower I received. 

Te next day wasn't that much different they only thing was that I needed to buy clothes and everyone made fun of me. 

By this point it's Sunday and I haven't been release yet. 

I came to church and this weird feeling overtook me and I knew after my talk I was going to be released. 

Brightly beams out fathers mercy is the hymn that will always remain me of my mission. 

While I gave my talk which remaind me of the blessing I received before I left, the Tera on those who knew me from before and those that didn't know where I was really made me realize gee I served a mission. I did had a change of heart. 

I had my two interviews and soon I was told those couple of words I didn't want to hear. "You are officially released you need to put your name tag away with the rest of the things from your mission" even typing this a week later still gives me the same sadness. My mission had come to an end my eternal commitment to serve was there but now I had to made different decisions, and start the new stage in my life. 

Well besides that I got to watch frozen and start working on renewing papers and updating IDs and then a long session of unpacking. I didn't leave my house at all for 3 days. Fear was growing in me. 

During that time I had visits, messages from people once I knew and my family. 

I work for a few hours with my dad, catch up with my mom and my recently adquiere best friend. 

My morning still bright and early and with the love of my family. Now I need to not have  the need to look for a companion, I need to spend sometime alone and ponder what I will do with my life. 

I'm so grateful for all the things I learned, for the promptings I received, the friendships I made and the things I adquiere. 

I'm thankful for my new heart and for the tools I have now to continue to live my life. 

Now as I adquiere my new tittle I shall see how I will adjust to civilian life.