Obviously my attempt to write monthly haven't been perfect but, the important thing is that I'm still trying and that's all that matters.
Since the last time I wrote my life has got quite a spin. That same week I had big moment, a moment to trust and its interesting once we realize that we can trust our Heavenly Father completely and give him those things that worry us and overshadow, we are able to see the good we can do.
I have almost conquer 2 months since I got the breaking news of my silly condition, I know isn't silly but I have decided that I'm gonna try to diminish it as much as I can and battle it until I can take control of myself. With that being said I finally passed my driving test and I'm no longer driving illegally yaaay.
I missed my mission reunion but I also got to see how simple and easy is to play and crush one feelings and having no remorse whatsoever.
I also learned that sometimes we need to just try and hope that we doing the right thing, in my case I can see how the following weeks have evolved and in eternally grateful to have such opportunity to test my faith and listen. Stay still and remember that I'm never alone.
During the summer I had decided to travel to Utah for general conference, make some decisions, see some people and seek guidance. I had my tickets booked but suddenly the opposition came with full power and for a second I lost sight of what I wanted and I what I needed and give up on my plans. As I continued I was anxious, uneasy, worried and I could see how I had a decision to take, now the opposition never went away but as I stand strong on my decision I could feel this empowering sensation, for once my strong will has an asset as well I had an overwhelming sensation of gratitude and desire to hear what I been perhaps pushing away.
I was blessed and after renting a car, switching traveling parties, 22.5h drive, 1h of sleep and an awesome girl we made it from BC to UT, from the moment I decided I need to go i also knew with whom I needed to stay. I was welcome to one of my favourite couples, I felt like I was back in Nova Scotia and I could tell without the shadow of a doubt that I was exactly where I needed to be. I didn't get to listen to the whole morning session but I heard enough from Pres. Uchtdorf and had a cat nap so I could ready for what it felt like the longest day ever.
Over the the time I have been a member of the church I noticed the importance of having the companionship of the Holy ghost as well as be willing to recognize and act on the promptings of the spirit, and just liked that I was blessed to hear words of comfort from my Heavenly Father thru one of his faithful servants.
I'm so grateful that we are able to receive revelation for ourselves, that we are blessed with a prophet and that we can always improve.
General conference was exactly what I needed, I feel so much love and peace by the end of it it was wonderful. I had the opportunity to spend time with some great people, to think, to ponder, to renew myself, to reconnect with what I really want.
I know I need to make a move, to start my path, to flip the page and continue learning. I was blessed and had the opportunity to see some of my relatives as well.
6 years ago I never wanted to live in Utah, I was rude, ornery and a total brat. 2 years ago I felt how I needed to be there but I put that feeling aside since I was starting my mission. Now I felt how I can't put it aside any longer and I need to act. "Beware of pride" since right now this is my way to make possible.
In one week a lot of decision happens in front of me and all where for the best and it happened as I was able to trust the Lord. 
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